I chose to...

I chose to force myself to forget everything...

I chose to escape from the fact...

I chose to force myself to be good..

I chose to act like nothing in front my family...

I chose to act I hate her the most in front my friend...

I chose to make myself as tired as i can to get on bed..

I chose to make myself drunk...

I chose to try anything i never try before...

I chose to do wat ever i hate before...

I chose to force myself to be in a new life...

I chose to hide her things in a box..

I chose to make myself don cry...

I chose to be everything...

BUT, i m really tired already...

DON force me pls...

I would become crazy...

I would like to tell her "pls come back to me"